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posted on 4-12 by Blaze2Depth24 |
| Problem with dudes now... I have put on a lil weight since the beginning of this year (like 10-15 lbs) but im not that big. Im 202 lbs and 6 feet. I was on the chatline today because I was horny as hell (i keep everything safe - condoms always for sex and even condoms for oral most of the time). This dude was from a rough area. He said he was brn skn muscular and asked me "u not that fat right"...and i told him no which im not. i went over there (30 min away) and he didn't tell me exactly where he stayed (that was when i was in the car and he didn't see me). i went to his apartment number and to the floor...when i knocked on a door i thought was his place...no one answered and then i called him. he never answered his phone when i called him back several times. is that a sign that he wasn't interested in what he saw? note it was dark, in the evening, and i had on a hoodie and im brn skn too so its hard to see me good unless i was in front of a light. i noticed that i am not getting as many dates as i usually get back in the day and that makes me mad. i showed 3 dudes my face pic on a4a and 2 didn't reply back and one said i was cute but he didn't have a place cuz he still stay with his family. i stay horny as hell and haven't had sex in a long azz time. also, it takes alot of time filtering thru BS with chatlines, and websites like adam4 adam and BGC. my self esteem is really low (and always been) and i am really thinking that i am ugly as hell now. back in the day i could pull dates/kats easily. im scared because i live in this lifestyle and you can contract HIV easily being gay/bisexual. i don't want to end up paying for escorts because that shyt is too expensive. it would dry out my bank account. shyt like $100-300 an hour....damn. what should i do now? i am going back to the gym but i stay very busy and i aint going to see results immediately. my body is just genetically shaped thick and thats bad for me because alot of gay dudes are either superficial or very big on having their date up to par, even if they not up to par themselves. i hear even fat gay dudes telling me they want muscular toned nikkz. and if a gay/bi kat is muscular (weather the face is cute or ugly) he gonna be conceited as hell and think his shyt is made of gold....im tired of this lifestyle....what should i do and is it possible to get out? |
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| posted on 12-15 by complicatedmelody Love yourself first and foremostly. Sadly, this lifestyle is full of the superficial and other type of dudes who are about "body lusting," but hey, it's what they like. U have your dudes who are about the body and sex, and those who are about gettin' to know folk and all that. U just take the good with the bad and learn from it. Love yourself though. If u look in the mirror and u see yourself as attractive, then it'll reflect in your attitude. Please don't let these dudes fuck up your self-esteem; it'll only make u feel worse about yourself as a person and lover. Life has to be lived, so do what makes you happy. It's too much psychology invloved with this type of crappy lifestyle. Peace dude. |
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| posted on 12-15 by redblack4e Indeed... I'm not small now nor have I ever been, 6'2, 260 lbs...I've always been told I carry my weight well but whatever...We are all superficial on some level and to say that u aren't is more often than not is completely bullshit. All you can do is appreciate who u are and where u are and that ur still blessed with the ability to change yourself and how u respond to your environment. My size has prevented me from dating a lot of men. People might ask how do u know its ur size. Well, if u talk to someone and the conversation is cool and their all over u, and then they suddenly stop once u show face that's a clue. Some dudes have been real upfront and been like ur too thick for me, ur too fat for me...but most folks who really get to know me are like ur a great guy but...there's always a but. I've learned to accept me and i've been going out more ever since. There are plenty of good dudes out there, but a lot of them become jaded and bitter because of the hurt that this lifestyle usually incurs. And its always a system of scaling of measuring. I've gone above and beyond at times, what society would deem my suitable match, so its really all about the connections u make.... I know I'm rambling but this is my point...don't let society dictate to u what u can and cannot have, don't let anyone live ur life for u man...if u lose weight do it for u, if u gain it, do it for u... |
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